Convicted

Indwelling sin is no more evident than in someone who has very little to do. Such is the case with us. Now that most everything we need to accomplish is done here in Norfolk we meet twice a day & then we're all left to our own devices. Boredom can be dangerous - the devil's workshop, so I've heard - & we as servicemembers are no different than anyone else. We've been lucky so far - we've all steered clear of trouble - but it's only a matter of time. If I had faith in nothing else I would still have faith in that.

Speaking of indwelling sin I have again began reading "The Enemy Within" by Kris Lundgaard. I say "again" because I started reading it some time ago but never finished it. So instead of trying to remember where I was I decided to just start over. Only this time I've determined that I'll actually read (& maybe even answer) & meditate on the Scriptures & study questions that accompanies each chapter. I figure that's the best way to get something out of it.

Now, I'm not quite sure if reading this book is one of my better ideas because I'm already being profoundly convicted. The layout of the book is such that reading the first few chapters makes you believe that you are the worst of sinners & if you aren't literally hating your sin to the shedding of your blood then maybe you should begin questioning your salvation. Believe me when I write that although I am not yet to the point of shedding my own blood I am to the point of crying tears of blood. I'm actually anxious to move on because I know there is hope & I'm sure this book won't leave me where I am right now.

As I've been reading "The Enemy Within" & writing this blog entry a few people have asked me what I'm reading & writing. I've kept my answers short & sweet, but one person in particular showed a little more interest than the others. It was then that I knew he is a Christian, for we got into an involved discussion on sin & temptation. And I mean involved. I think he & I will become friends & maybe even accountability partners, which would definitely be an answer to prayer. He just doesn't know it yet.